Auditions

Listening to: What is this feeling, Wicked

I've had a revolation!!! I just don't care. I don't know what caused me to think this but it's true.

It came to me durring audititons. I was called back up to sing 'Loathing' with someone else other than my partner whom I bombed the last audition with. I was afraid I was going to freak out but all of a sudden I just didn't. It was as if it didn't matter. The same when I only got 93% on a final. I just looked and shrugged. It was weird.

I guess that could be good when it comes to keeping cool but really, how good can it be if I shrug off things like 9/11 (though I may have been to young to be able to tell the difference.) I've been doing this kind of thing since I was very young and it seems to worry me, what if someone close to me died? Would I just go on with my life or would I flip out? Scary...

On a brighter note, winter hols are comming soon!!!!!! I hope you all have fun skiing and doing whatever you blokes do on your holidays. Me? I've got some parties and some friends and some art to catch up on. So peoples, stay off the beaches, I'm teaching my friends to surf all week!

You know you love me,
Lara